Oh where do I even start? I want this post to be POSITIVE. I am going to share the struggles first because it's REAL but it is NOT what I will focus on. Let's rewind back to Thursday. I spend the day preparing to host the drill team dinner for the girls. I kept busy making lots of food and it was a big success. I even went to the school with a few of the drill mom's and we decorated the girls locker. The girls were so excited for their FIRST drill team competition this year. I have been OVER THE MOON excited to see them perform. I'm such a girly girl and love the competitions.
On Friday, I was at my office for a meeting. I have six new Craft Channel segments to tape this coming week, an appearance on Good Things Utah (TV), and I'm flying to EVER AFTER in CA to teach next weekend. So there is lots of designing to do to prepare for this coming week. I raced from my office to pick up my son from school. It was Zach's short day and I was TEN minutes late. I felt horrible and was stressed from going NON-STOP. Ty was in surgery and he got home right when I needed to go to the high school. I was decorating the glass display case for the drill team. Yes, there was much to get done. I wanted to try to be done by the time a workout class started. Thankfully, Jill (another mother from the drill team) had come to help me.
I was inside the display case when I felt a really bad leg pain going down the back of my left leg. It was from the top of the leg down to the feet. I had never felt such a odd pain and it started to get worse. It then went numb. I called my husband and he asked me to please come home. Of course, I had to stay and finish the display. I was so thankful Jill was there to help me. I was fighting the pain and trying not to let Jill know how much pain I was in. Finally, we were done and I walked to the car with my numb leg and foot. As I was driving home, I honestly thought I was not going to be able to drive home. The pain went from a 4 to a 8. I came home and tried to do some mobility exercises. I was in so much pain at this point that I was crying and shaking. It was so intense and it was so painful that I felt helpless. I layed down but no matter what posititon- I was in pain. The pain in my leg was severe and I was crying non-stop. I was suffering from this:
Sciatica
Sciatica is pain, tingling, or numbness produced by an irritation of the nerve roots that lead to the sciatic nerve. The sciatic nerve is formed by the nerve roots coming out of the spinal cord into the lower back. It goes down through the buttock, then its branches extend down the back of the leg to the ankle and foot.
I was bedridden and had to finally resort to pain medication. I was finally able to sleep a few hours and then when I awoke- I was left with numbness in my leg and foot. I needed Ty's help to get up. It's now Sunday and I still have the numbness and pain. Hmmmm.... there is nothing that I can do about it. When I am up for anytime, the pain is a like a zolt that is intense until I go back and lay down.
The worst was that I could not go to the drill competition on Saturday. As a mother, this broke my heart. I cried and cried and yes, felt that I was letting my daughter down. I was at home in bed, and not there for her. Talk about feeling sad! Gentry and three of her friends went when they found out I was not able to go. FAMILY is everything! I cried knowing that Gentry was there and making sure McKay had family there to support her. I was getting text updates. The girls did amazing!!!!! They placed 3rd in both military and dance.
The coach was crying because they did so great. I was crying out of happiness too! I know that we cannot plan how things are always going to go in our life. We have to have faith and know that when our PLAN A does not work, we have to accept PLAN B. My plan B this weekend was not what I wanted, but I have FAITH that it was going to be okay. Honestly, that is life. I knew that my daughter understood that I simply could not make it to watch her.
I want McKay to know how much I love her! I can't wait to go to her future competitons.
NOW FOR GREAT NEWS!!!!!!!
TODAY... a new MIRACLE in our family!!!!! My entire family is in Orem, Utah to visit our newest little blessing. Azalea Maelynn Collins was born at 2:02 pm. 7 lbs 9 oz. 19 inches and she is beautiful. I was waiting at home for photos and info about her. I feel so blessed and thankful for her. Matt and Kayla are so blessed! I can't wait until I can see her myself. I wish I had been physically able to go see her myself.
This is Azalea...
This is Kayla holding her beautiful little girl. I love that Kayla used the blanket I gave her to wrap her up. It especially made me happy since I have not been able to hold her yet. I am simply overwhelmed with gratitude. She looks just like her brother Maxson.
I love this photo of Matt, Azalea and Kayla. FAMILY!!!!!!
So tomorrow I will to focus on getting better. There is exercises and stuff that is important to do with sciatia nerve problems. It hurts to do them, but I know I have too. I am taking it day by day...PLAN B is in full force. I am going to focus on the blessing of my family and how they are supporting me. I know that it's all going to work out.
I am simply overjoyed and in love with the Azalea and so thankful that she is finally here and heathly!!!!!
