Today I did something that I always talk about in my workshops. I encourage all of us to PUT OURSELVES in our life story. Take more photos and not worry about "not being perfect" anymore. If we WAIT to take those photos for the "perfect" situation, the perfect outfit, the perfect weight, the perfect.... I hope you get where I am going with this.
So I have had so many emails and comments on FACEBOOK asking for a photo of myself since I've been doing boot camp. I honestly, did not want to do it. I would much rather post photos of my family. I am not really comfortable with headshots and photos of myself alone. So today... just a few moments ago (love how beautiful and sunny today is!) my son Zach took my photo:
I wanted to show a few things...
1. I am NOT super skinny. Not even skinny... I am working HARD (5 days a week) to become fit, strong, and healthier. I am taking baby steps to change things in my life. I had so many things going on in my life that was weighing on me... things that I simply could not control. The stress was consuming me. I felt horrible and I felt like I needed to FIGHT it.. I wanted to dig deep and face all the emotional baggage that I was carrying around. I wanted to REGAIN and FIGHT for MYSELF. I know this may not make sense at all to you. I have been dealing with the most wonderful past year in business, but I also dealt with some personal issues that threw me for a BIG curve.
2. I am happy. I learned to love myself... as I am... TODAY... and not focus on my flaws. As I look at this photo, I see a woman who is no longer focused on "what I need to change." I will never ever be perfect and I am embraced that fully. However, I am now in the place MENTALLY that I am ready to challenge myself to a whole new level.
3. I needed HELP!!!!! I knew I needed someone to help inspire and motivate me. My gym family are there to support me. We are a little group that I have grown to love. The words of encouragement from the trainers and the group keep me going EVERY single work out. I am getting stronger and I owe so much to the trainers especially. They have no IDEA how much I appreciate them... NO idea how much I owe to them. I guess you could say... a spark was lit within me.
4. I have a new MOTTO... I tell it to myself EVERY single day (many times a day)... FAILURE IS NOT AN OPTION!!!!!!!
5. You need to REWARD yourself sometimes. Yesterday, I went to the mall with one of my best friends. I saw this cute white shirt. I loved it. It was 30% off. However, every girl knows that ruffles make you look bigger. Right? Well, I don't care because I loved it and I want to wear ruffles. HA! Instead of turning to food, I will look to rewarding myself with things that make me feel good.
I completed FIVE days this week. I flipped tires, ran my heart out, and more. I signed up for TWO more months. It is worth it! I want this. Why did I wait so long to do this????
Tonight, enjoying Zach's baseball game with the family. McKay has the Spartonian Ball (formal dance) too. The weather is gorgeous and I'm enjoying it all. I hope you have a wonderful fun filled weekend too!
