I have no idea IF I will actually POST this blog post. Maybe I will write it and then delete it. I have debated for over a year now on how much to share on my blog. How much is too much? How do I share such a CRAZY & weird part of my life. I mean, really I am just like YOU. I am a mother, wife, sister, friend, who happens to own a scrapbook company. I am so busy doing what I love so much that I have really been baffled by the HATE that I constantly get from my "ex-friend."
I have NO IDEA why someone would take so much of their time and life to hate me. I mean really, she is a wife and mother. I can't imagine WHAT is going on in her head. You should see the countless emails that I have from her. Of course, they are all similar to the one that I got last night:
Her alias for now is MARY ARTEST:
mary artest has left you a comment:
Wow... I can't believe it!! You are happy that your daughter broke her foot??? You are happy about it?? You need to proofread your posts. Or perhaps you did and you are too stupid to know what you just said! Perhaps you went to BYU also. Do they teach English there??? You are one ugly person....And why didn't you call me today??
I guess you would say block her from commenting and emailing you. Well, it's not that easy. She changes her IP address more than she changes her underpants. She is constantly emailing me, and trying to add me on facebook as a FAKE person. I did enjoy seeing that she was Tom Cruise and Brad Pitt trying to add me. She is one of my friends on FACEBOOK. Really, I don't care!
Wow. Saw you on Good Things Utah! Good job! I have heard that the camera adds ten pounds. My question is... HOW MANY CAMERAS DO THEY HAVE THERE? Your arms are huge, and the rest of you is constantly hidden behind the display. WHY are you hiding???? Your necklace is hideous! What are you thinking??? P.S. are you still being threatened? Are you still wearing the pink sweats? Have you NO fashion sense? OH YEAH, you are from Utah! NO talent...NO taste...NO class!! Oh, no thanks on the giveaway. I have been given enough crap by losers such as you!!!! Good day!!!!!
The reason I tell you this is because I have GROWN and learned so much from the past 15 months of constant hatred and harassment/stalking from this "ex-friend." I should have listened to my gut and heart when I met her. I knew she was struggling. I knew she desperately wanted to be a "name" in the scrapbook industry. I had a conversation with her brother and he told me things about her that I never knew. I caught her in many lies about her "life", her "marriage" and all that stuff. I never told her, because I knew that she must be in a lot of pain. I didn't care. I wanted to "help" her. I now realize that TRUE friends are rare. I could not fix anyone.
When I found out 1,000% who this GIRL was who was threatening me- I deleted her from facebook and told the police that I NEVER wanted anything EVER to do with her. I simply wanted her to leave me alone. I grieved the loss of WHO I thought was a friend and I moved on.
You are ?????? years old.. You have never used the rubber bands, yet somehow you 'LOVE' them now. You are so shallow and inexperienced. I have a suggestion for you. Instead of (posers boot camp), maybe you should take a class in English grammer and composition. Your writing is quite embarasing. Your experience level is obviously quite limited. Why do you think anybody would want to read your whinning and complaining about your pretend 'boot camp'. You are such a tool. It's funny how you pay people to train you, and you think they respect you. A clue for the 'clueless', they don't care about you and they even make fun of you after you leave. You are so pathetic. How come you are constantly losing weight, (6 pounds here and 2 pounds there), yet you are still a COW. I saw you walking today (on 1300 east) (not running)(in the ugliest pink sweat pants I have ever seen), you are bigger than ever. You are such a joke!
I have thought, prayed and thought about her. I have prayed for her to realize that she needs to go to a happier place in her life and heart and LEAVE me alone. Honestly, why she focuses so much on me and has sent me so many emails- some days she will send three messages. I have no idea what is going on in her mind,but I have to worry that she lives so close to me. I have to worry that some day her verbal threats would turn physical.
Yes, so today let's talk about WHY I am sharing this...because I never thought in a MILLION years I would have someone this negative come into in my life and family. I am fighting this 100%. I will not let anyone threaten my family. NEVER! Anyway, I am 1,000% stronger because of her. I have something HUGE that is happening because of this experience. Yes, I will be telling my story. I want others to know that cyber bullying is WRONG and that YOU will get caught. The laws are getting tougher and I'm happy to say that I am standing up to this "ex-friend." I will not stop until laws are changed. At first, I just wanted HER to go away and then I realized that I needed to share my story.
Now to the GOOD GOOD NEWS... I am 3 weeks into BOOT CAMP! I am so happy. I ran today and did not stop. I think we ran 36-40 laps. I was amazed and really thrilled to go from a NON- RUNNER to running. I did it! I feel so happy. I have worked so hard and I feel so much better. Boot Camp scared me... but not anymore. I know that ALL OF US have it within us to do GREAT things!!!! We are only limited by our own mind. I promise you that if I can do this, YOU can to! I am reading this amazing book-
Through HIS eyes by Virginia H. Pearce:
What do you believe about yourself? ARe there things that keep you from recognizing your talents and potential? Chances are, it's time to do some spring cleaning-- a little sorting, sifting, and discarding--in your personal belief box. In the book, it helps YOU to discover self-defeating thoughts to toss out of our belief box, examine negative beliefs that wreak havoc with our emotions and behavior and learn to identify and STRENGTHEN truths that encourage, uplift and allow us to embrace the LIFE that God intended for us.
I am so excited, Gentry comes home from college in the morning. I am one HAPPY mother!!!!!!
Okay, I am going to post this blog. I hope you know that I am 1,000% okay and in such a good place. I don't want sympathy or anything like this. I want laws changed. Have a great day!