Well, we are in SENIOR days at our house. Gentry is trying to decide which college to go to. Last night, she found out that she was accepted at Brigham Young University-
Of course, since I went to BYU- and both her dad's, her brother and we are big fans of the university and academic program. Can I admit- I hope she will go there??? She is kind of leaning towards USU- Utah State University because her close friend,
Ashley is wanting her to go with her.
*photo from last year Spartonian BALL (her date was the one with a funny face!
I am trying to let her make the decision- but it's hard. I admit- I want her as close to me as possible. BYU is a fast 40 minutes away from HOME... USU is 2 hours- too far...wink! Gentry said she will make her decision based on the scholarship offers-(they will send those out in about two weeks) Can I tell you how thankful I am that SHE was so self motivated and worked hard at school and balanced countless hours on the drill team???
I have been thinking and praying about how to talk about the issue's that I faced recently. I knew that Heavenly Father would help me get through this. HE has and I've grown so much from this painful experience. I put my faith in HIM that I would be able to understand the craziness of the situation. When I found out WHO was sending me the emails, threats and comments on my blog- I literally felt the room spin. I thought I was going to pass out. Thankfully, Ty was with me and I told him that I thought I was going to faint. I was in a total state of shock. I felt like a knife was stabbed in my back. I never thought in a million years that this person- someone who I thought was one of my best friends would do this to me. I had to kept reading the print out of her name and IP address. I did not want to believe it but the evidence was 100% there...
The crazy part is that this person is "in the industry" too. She is someone that I thought was a real friend to me. I mean, she even came to my daughter's wedding reception. I would let her see my designs before the debut. We would spend countless hours on the phone together. I truly considered her one of my very best friends. I could share so much more, but I just can't. It's still too painful and I think I am still in total shock. I am thankful for the support of the police and my true friends. I decided that for NOW not to proceed with legal action-she has stopped for NOW. So the police and I have the hope that SHE has realized that she was caught and is being watched. However, the stipulation is that she never contacts me in any way- me, my family, my business, or tries to harm or threaten me or my character...ever again. Thankfully, I know she is and will be watched closely now.
The police department wanted me to read a book to help protect me. It is called "The GIFT of FEAR and other survival signals that protect us from violence." It is by Gavin De Becker. I realized that I TRUST way too easily and I needed to read this book. I read it on the way to St. George this weekend. I will not live in FEAR and allow HER or anyone to do this to me. SHE was very cruel in her threats to me. I knew INSTANTLY when I found out who SHE was- that I had to do one thing-
FORGIVE...
yes...
FORGIVE-
Many of you have asked- has SHE contacted me since I found out???? NOPE... and SHE has not owned up to her actions. She has not called, emailed or done anything. I still have no idea WHY she hated me so much. She was a completely different person to me. The police officer commented to me that her email's with me was full of hate and extremely hostile. She wanted to ruin my marriage, family and career. I would imagine SHE never thought she would get caught. If you know me...this was so not like me... I'm naturally a PEACEMAKER and so thankfully FBI man- thank YOU for
helping me... to STAND up and not allow it to continue!!!!!
I doubt he reads my blog...but you KNOW- I am sending him
THANKFUL vibes...
NOW I KNOW-
as they say THE TRUTH shall set you free-
The truth is SHE never was my friend and I've accepted that.
I pray for her everyday and hope someday soon that
she will get help. I still love and miss the friend that I thought she was.
Yes... I said it, HOW can you hate someone that you
were friends with for several years???? I was with Junkitz when
we became friends... and well, we were so close.
I just want all of you to know that I
can't and will never be friends with
this person again- but I
have forgiven and am working
everyday on ERASING the hurtful, mean and horrible things that she
said to me. Ty never believed for ONE second her accusations and he helped
lift me and support me in her crazy threats. I could SHARE so much more...but
I think it's best to end on a positive note.
Through many tears and sadness over this- I was lifted
and comforted by Heavenly Father. When I couldn't stand...I knelt in prayer-
and learned that I do have a friend that I can TRUST and will
never BETRAY me...
for this I am THANKFUL!!!!
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