I can't seem to stop crying this morning. I took my boys carpools to school. I came home and read a few emails. Then I decided to take some time to ponder, reflect and pray in the silence of the home. Oh my... silence can be good. My heart was filled to the capacity with the sweetest feelings of great love and appreciation today. I have been trying to do so much and often I think..." Is my good- good enough?" Do you ever feel this? Do you ever feel like you are letting someone down no matter what? I have been struggling with feeling GOOD in my heart knowing that I'm doing HIS will. I felt my heart EXPLODE with peace and pure love.
I am crying so hard right now I think my heart will burst. I just feel so grateful to know that God does listen to our hearts, and Heavenly Father does help us daily. We are not alone. I know this and I feel this. I have decided that when we focus on what matters most- it truly makes us a better us. Say NO to those things that do not matter. This is hard coming from a "people pleaser." However, when I do this I am always able to balance it all.
Tomorrow I am talking to the students at Murray High School for Career Day. I am taking this so seriously. I want to inspire these young men and women to follow their dreams. I hope they just don't see me as some old woman who designs paper. ha! I am thankful for the opportunity- yes, crazy I know- to share my career and how much I love what I do. Often, I feel like this is so much more than a job. I work yet it never feels like work. I am blessed to be able to do this mostly from my home.
Today I am preparing my "speech." I am also packing for Canada... I honestly am beyond thrilled. I want to pinch myself. I have to finally take care of a little personal issue I am facing. I have an eye appointment in the afternoon- recently I have learned that my vision is not so good. My vision in my right eye has been getting worse and worse. I am going to another doctor to get a "second" opinion. Many of you might not know but I have lost ALL my left side perphiphal vision when I had a stroke 13 years ago. I am experiencing EXTREME loss of vision in my right eye now. I am trying to stay positive, but this scares me. I was scared to go in again since my first doctor told me that I am going to loss my vision. So although this is not good news, I am going to go in and pray that I can find out that I can get some help.
So... life... we all have our trials and I am extremely thankful for the good and the bad. I can tell you I really appreciate the fact that I can see...even if it's limited.
I'm still doing my daily gratitude... it's IMPORTANT!!!!!