My boys are away hunting and in between designing new products I have been trying to "deep clean" some cabinets. I was up late getting organized. I am on a de-clutter roll. Then to my surprise I found this little girly butterfly book in the back of our kitchen cabinet. I had never seen it before. I opened the first page and saw it was Gentry's diary. I have never read any of my kids diaries, so I called Gentry. I read the first page to her and held back the tears. It was written on the day after my mother died. Gentry had journaled about it. I had no idea she had done this. I have felt very strongly to share her sweet thoughts. She was only 10 years old. I know that scrapbooking for me is an extension of THIS diary entry. I was overcome with emotion and I felt what Gentry felt. It was a reminder to me of WHY I am passionate about "telling the story."
Monday September 16, 2002 Sad
Yesterday my grandma died and I am very sad. They don't know how she died so they'll have to do an autopsy. She died while my cousins were sleeping over at her house, which they haven't done for about 2 years. The night before before she fell and hit the table but just said "she was tired." It looked as though she was trying to get to her couch and fell and died. My cousins woke up in the morning and thought she just fell asleep on the ground. Like three hours later my cousin thats my age felt for a pulse and there wasn't one. My mom cryed all day and went to the airport yesterday. We go to my grandmas house. My older sister Taylor whose twelve has cried all day and had to have a blessing. I miss my mom alot. I wish she would come home.
Gentry did this photo collage yesterday and it is beautiful to me. I thought how much I wish my mother had been here the past ten years to see her grow up. I am a little emotional since Gentry went back to BYU yesterday. McKay is packing as I type. She leaves today. I am truly thankful for my family. I am thankful I found Gentry's diary and we were able to read it together. I am thankful I am here to see my kids grow up.
Be thankful for every single day!!!!