I have to say...ever since I came home from Brave Girls, I have felt a HUGE difference within me. I am still floating on the goodness that I felt. I am thinking EVERYDAY about what I discovered about myself. It has NOT went away. I am so HAPPY- much happier than I have been for years. I have lived for many years in FEAR. I fear too much. I often let this HOLD ME BACK. Brave Girls- I have learned that I need to MEND the interior of my HOUSE. It is going to happen...and NO I am not talking about my house residence. Wink!
One of my first orders of business was FACING the truth. I have not wanted to do this. I have lived in denial about some important issues in my life and family. I have just accepted too much. One of the things that I have done was STOP doing what I love and helps ME feel good about myself.
I admit, I was addicted to working out for several years. I was the girl who would work out at least 1.5 hours everyday- INTENSE and would NEVER miss a day. The day before I had a stroke ( I was 7 months pregnant with Ty, who is 10 years old now) I had RAN 4 plus miles. I was extreme but I loved it and I loved that I could eat lots of food and still stay slim.
Was that what was most important???? I realize it was the good happy feelings from exercise that I loved and that made me very happy. I was a happy girl...
Since my mother died in 2002- I just LOST the desire. GONE- GONE- GONE... I just did not care. I lost my passion, my drive and well, I lost the happiness that being fit brought me. It was SO not about the weight I weigh...it was so much more. Years later, I was still struggling with finding the DESIRE to be whole again. I thought I had it but it would dwindle and I would beat myself up...Have you done this?
Well, I was driving home from Brave Girls and I FELT so strongly that I was a NEW me...but the OLD me again. I am probably making NO sense. However, something CLICKED big time within me and I am READY....READY.... READY to FLY again..
I will FLY
I will SOAR
and I will LOVE myself again....
So my gym membership at Excel had expired in July. Can you believe I had not been in about 7 months???? Yes, I was not even closely motivated. So I thought and I prayed about changing myself. I am READY to be WHOLE in every way. So I joined a new gym this week. The cute lady who signed me up thought I was crazy. I promised her that she would see me EVERYDAY for the next year (except for Sundays)...NO matter what. I told her that I had made a promise to myself that I would come EVERY single day. If I am traveling...I can use their gyms across the world. So I joined and paid for the entire first year (saved 10% by doing this) and joined CURVES. You may have heard of it. It is a gym for just woman... sorry guys, the workout is designed for woman. I went FOUR days- Wed, Thurs, Friday and Saturday. I signed up on Wednesday.
I have no time to WAIT... I am so happy- What took me so long to get to this place again?????
I know for me it was BRAVES GIRLS.
I want to say that this is so MUCH more than weight. It is about finding my LIGHT again. Oh, and losing weight is always a great bonus. I feel like I am FLYING AGAIN!!!!!!!!
I am sooo THRILLED for CHA W... BIG BIG BIG things are in store. I have expanded all my lines and well, I am going to FLY like I never have. I am working on a NEW TC booth...yes, expanded and much bigger. I am decorating it from the heart and being ME... I am LOVING my new lines...all designed from the CENTER of my artistic HEART...and it feels good.
Updates: The Red Bee (all classes are SOLD OUT).... I have not heard from Ever After BUT I think we may have a seat or two left with these two projects:
6x12 glitter album with lots of TRANSPARENCY!!!!!
My gratitude journal class- *two of my all time FAVE classes.... so call if your interested (fast- wink!)
Also, I wanted to let you know that I have added some new dates to my schedule for 2010-
I will be teaching in the UK in Feb. 2010 and in France (Version Scraps) too.
I have many emails about coming and teaching. I am actually BOOKED for the entire 2010 year. I am working on it THIS week. IF you are a store, please email me again. I am trying to balance it all BUT I am trying to add in a few spots this next year. (so thankful to the best supportive family- I love you so much!!!!) I now have a new assistant who is amazingly organized and will help me keep on track.
HAPPY HAPPY Sunday...
I hope you KNOW you each can FLY too. Sometimes we just forget and need a little reminder!
I love you Melody and Kathy and my
BRAVE GIRL friends!!!!!
